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Pictures of Me -
Journal - Favorite Pictures I’m so exhausted. Still.
Over everything. I overanylize everything I do. Panic over it. Over and over. Picking apart everything I should have done and everything j did wrong.
It’s so draining. Ugh.
The only breaks I get are sleep, which is rare and brief, or cutting.
I’m screwed.
That’s so vlad
Talking about expectations and mental health problems.
IIIIII
WAAANT
TOOOOO
DIEEEEEEEE
And I’m drinking tonight.
Fuck.
I’m gonna get slopppyyyy
Mostly with my feels.
I just hope I don’t cut. It’d be the third night in a row :/
Fat.
Everywhere.
My weight hasn’t budged in a week and its killing me.
All I want to do is watch slc punk and reminisce about the first time I made Sam watch it and she freaked out the whole time about how amazing it was. For months when we passed each other in the hall we greeted each other saying “FUCK YOU MAN” all heroin bob style.
My depression has been at an all time low lately.
I don’t know why :( I’m so tired and fragile all the time. Anything and everything sets me off.
I’m exhausted though.
I could sleep for years.